Emotion weighs me down

I feel so much sorrow

So much pain in my heart

Makes my mouth all dry

Makes me want to cry

Is it the thought of turning 36?

Or just not having Mum around?

Is it the spoiling that I miss,

That only a Mother will enjoy 

It's to be in her presence 

To laugh and mean it from the heart

Not this fake exterior 

Just to get past

Your smile and laughter

Brightened up my day

Made my life have a purpose

But now why do I care? 

This deep sadness is something that creeps up

It fills my heart that I struggle to just get on

You are my heart and soul, feel crushed without you

I love you more than anyone and Maharaj knows this too