May Maharaj bless you my Veer

When Maharaj says to see the same beautiful light within all...How? How can I see it in one who is full of anger? Hating on his very own? I always wanted to impress him but now I realise there is only Maharaj there for you day and night. We think to ourselves this is mine, this is mine. Mistake. Nothing is yours. It is all Maharajs. Feel blessed that Maharaj has blessed you with so many gifts... the love of family...the love of a brother.

I look back into my life and thank you Maharaj for all the happy times I have had with my brothers. May Maharaj bless the new soul and his new family. I may not be a part of his new life but my prayers are with him always. You protect him at every step. I know you do.

You know when people say he is my jaan or she is my jaan. My heart has always been with my elder brother. He can hate me, hurt me but my heart always yearns for his happiness. From a very young age I realised this. He went away to Birmingham for the six weeks holidays and I missed him so much I got ill. I missed him so much.

I remember once I was making roti...I was only about 12 years old. My elder brother was out and I somehow started to remember a Sakhi my Mum told me about Guru Nanak Dev Ji. How Bebe Nanaki asked Guru Nanak how will I live without seeing my dear brother? Guru Nanak Dev Ji replied, 'O dear sister, whenever you shall think of me I shall come to visit you'. Bebe Nanaki was making roti one night and she thought this roti is for my veer Guru Nanak Dev Ji. Guru Ji graced her with his presence and had the roti she had made with so much pyar.


I'm no saint and I NO WAY compare myself to my Guru. But I thought of that sakhi while making roti and thought how I wish my brother would come to eat this roti I am making. Right at that very moment he walked in and said I'm so hungry. I could have cried out of happiness. What a magical moment. So much pyar. Maharaj showed me that you wish for something from a true heart and he grants it. He truly grants it.

Now he is parting to start his new life with his family. I will no longer be a part of. But to let him go only because my Maharaj is looking out for him. It dnt stop the tears.

I feel so alone, Maharaj.