In a state

In a state

Don't know what to say

Through the pregnancy I kept myself to myself

From the one

Now I am distant again

I feel used

I feel not worthy

I feel so far from everything

I do everything and yet feel so empty

Never before have I felt so alone

I feel like a soul-less body 

Just a corpse

Isn't it better to be dead?

The one does everything

I dont wana a be a burden

I was never a burden upon my own parents

I don't feel pretty 

I don't feel adequate

I feel so isolated

Feel the weight of the world on my shoulders

I miss routine of work

I miss my independence

I miss being me

As a mother you sacrifice your all

I love being a Mum

But am I coping?

I don't think so...I just feel I am not doing all I should

My emotions are everywhere at the moment

I feel I have no support 

Looking forward to spending time at my Mum and Dad's house

Feels as if my own home is no longer my own!