Feeling weighed down

I feel weighed down

As of late I loose my balance

Like I miss my support

To stand up tall

I want to bury myself

Deep within the earth

In the hope I can steal a moment 

When can I talk to you?

My period is barely there

You worry if I will conceive

I say Maharaj's will

But I miss your worrying

You won't believe but I started my period

My mum told me before me

I was pregnant 

My mum told me before me

The pain of child birth

My mum told me before me

Never trust those that betrayed Guru Gobind Singh Ji

My mum told me 

You taught us to give to those less fortunate

And yet I could give nothing to you...

Why do I feel you/Maharaj are mad at me?

Need a hug from my Mum xx