Piriformis / Sciatica left leg pain

From little that I have read

Niggles, pains, disease is stemmed from emotion 

Suppressed, squashed, unexpressed emotion 

It has to release in some way. It does through pains in the body depending on where we store it.

Feeling helpless and not able to fulfill or spoil Mum

Feel inadequate in all aspects of life

Wife, mother, sister, daughter in law,daughter, career 

Imposter syndrome am I truly enough to meet the expectation of society 

Let the world think what they think

My soul is answerable to Maharaj and Maharaj alone 

I've let the people go, not let associated feelings go

I acknowledge the hurt, the pain and that I miss them as they were once part of me 

But I am.beinf taught everything that was born must depart.

I too will depart but before I do I need to remember the almighty the Sahibzade and Sikhi sacrifice 

What will I give up to make room for amrit?