I don't know if I can do this

Maharaj, u look after the entire world
With such perfection, precision and poise
You have gifted us with your blessing
Can I do this?

Being a mum is the most amazing feeling
But what if I'm not good enough? If I make all the wrong decisions? What if I can't cope? Will you be with me? Even though I not made the time or effort to go gurdwara or do my paath?

I never been more scared, Maharaj
This blessing is questioning my Sikhi
I don't want the blessing to take the wrong path
I feel so alone

This blessing belongs to you
Always and forever
You will guide him/her always
I don't want to be the bad influence
I feel so alone. :(