Sunday, March 30, 2008

Longing to see you my brother

I really miss my brother. A family cannot stay together, I know that. But least keep the contact, least come and see the family and see how everyone is doing. I miss him so much. Especially when there is a wedding on hand. I remember when we used to be kids, he used to joke and say 'when you get married, I am gona get water and tap it onto my face to show how upset I am. Then run into your room and partyin your room!!'

I used to laugh and say 'Yea right, Veerji I know that you will miss me more than the family put together.' He used to smile and walk away.

It was the truth. Now I don't even know if he gona be at the wedding.

I love him so much. More than anything else in the world. I promise to the one never to take him away from his family. I would always want him to uphold is responsabilities as a son, as a brother.

I know he won't ever read this but to my dearest brother, my veer, my sweet sweet veer ji. Wherever you are may Maharaj keep u close to him, may you always have a smile on your face. The family miss you so much. No-one talks of how much they miss you but inside everyone is broken and torn by your love. Whatever has happened, I fold my hands and apologise. I am sorry for acting like a spoilt brat. I hate fighting with you. I love you more than life itself. My marriage day is upon us and who knows where I will be or where you will be. If we don't make the most of our time here, then there is no point when one of us is just left with a soul. How I long to see you, to talk to you, to ensure you are ok. I know Maharaj is taking care of you and your family. But having no contact with 3 people in your life that have only ever prayed and wanted the best for you? Come home Veer ji. The house seems empty without your laughter, without your smile, without your jokes.

I love you Veerji

More than you will ever know.

I won't leave this house until you give me away to the One.

One Word


Just one word


Thank you

x

Sunday, March 16, 2008

Destiny's Child Song


Where do you go?

Baby please?

Come back to me


It has been so long

Do you still love me?

Are you thinking of me?


Crying internally

Running out of reasons of why I not heard of you


Where do you go?

I don't know

I know that I need you in this heart of me


Where do you go?

I don't know


Baby please

Please come back to me

I cannot live my life withou you


Thinking of everything

You confuse me

Can't deal with all the pain

Still missing you

Without you here I am breaking down inside


So baby Please

Come back to me


I cannot live my life without you

You know that I need you in this life of mine

I cannot live my life without you Maharaj


Nothing 2 smile about..




Seems so empty

So empty

Permanent frown on my face

Nothing to smile about


How can people be so happy?

Is this what I want?

A girl's ultimate wish

Her wedding day


But it's day that fills me with fear

Only Maharaj knows what is yet to come

Seems like there are ppl waiting to end it

So empty


I don't even feel you near

Why do u leave me?

Where do u go?

I am only doing this cos of you


I hold out my hands

Who will grasp it till the end?

I thought Maharaj sent the one

But this bride waits for you...

Monday, March 03, 2008

Last lecture by dying professor

What would you do?

If you took Hukam from Maharaj
He pointed you one way
But your family was against it
What would you do?

If you have never followed anything Guru Ji says
He gave you instruction
Again and Again
What would you do?

If you took Hukam more than once
The outcome was still the same
The word was there
What would you do?

If there was so much negativity
Your whole family was against you
All forces stopping you
But your Guru gave you Hukam

What would you do?

Thought of the day

Thought of the day by Rishipal Singh

I came across this story on the internet. Heard this before in katha. It talks about the Vaheguru within us all and why we seem to get confused onthe path to finding our Beloved. We search high and low but Vaheguru isnear by. This is the legend that speaks of this divinity.

Old Hindu legend...

There was once a time when all human beings were gods, but they so abusedtheir divinity that Brahma, the chief god, decided to take it away fromthem and hide it where it could never be found.

Where to hide their divinity was the question. So Brahma called a councilof the gods to help him decide. "Let's bury it deep in the earth," said thegods. But Brahma answered, "No, that will not do because humans will diginto the earth and find it." Then the gods said, "Let's sink it in thedeepest ocean." But Brahma said, "No, not there, for they will learn todive into the ocean and will find it." Then the gods said, "Let's take itto the top of the highest mountain and hide it there." But once againBrahma replied, "No, that will not do either, because they will eventually climb every mountain and once again take up their divinity."

Then the gods gave up and said, "We do not know where to hide it, because it seems that there is no place on earth or in the sea that human beings will noteventually reach."

Brahma thought for a long time and then said, "Here is what we will do. We will hide their divinity deep in the center of their own being, for humanswill never think to look for it there." All the gods agreed that this was the perfect hiding place, and the deedwas done. And since that time humans have been going up and down the earth,digging, diving, climbing, and exploring--searching for something already within themselves.

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Wake up call

Will this see it's way through?


Every week, the same old story

Every time, will this reach the end

Everytime , why does this occur

Again?


Maharaj

You know me, you know I dnt wanna be supressed

I will not be suppressed or supress


You will not choose a family where that happens

You will look after your daughter

Through the ages of time

Again and Again


Please be my support

I have never had to face so many obstacles

To see one end goal


Am doing so with your kirpa and guidance