Saturday, September 24, 2011

Missing the One

You are my gift
From Maharaj
Hate it when u so far

Can't wait til u home
Baby and I miss u
Xx

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Ultrasound

In the Ultrasound
Was an organ
Appearing brighter in colour
Signifying abnormality

Feel sad but so helpless
It is in Maharaj hands
What can we do
It is your Hukam
I took a Random Shabd from STTM online for some advise from the Guru

This Shabad is by Guru Raam Daas Ji in Raag Sorath on Pannaa 653



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Fourth Mehla:


siqgur puriK ij mwirAw BRim BRimAw Gru Coif gieAw ]
sathigur purakh j maariaa bhram bhramiaa ghar shhodd gaeiaa
One who is cursed by the True Guru, abandons his home, and wanders around aimlessly.

Esu ipCY vjY PkVI muhu kwlw AwgY BieAw ]
ous pishhai vajai fakarree muhu kaalaa aagai bhaeiaa
He is jeered at, and his face is blackened in the world hereafter.

Esu Arlu brlu muhhu inklY inq JgU sutdw muAw ]
ous aral baral muhahu nikalai nith jhagoo suttadhaa muaa
He babbles incoherently, and foaming at the mouth, he dies.


ikAw hovY iksY hI dY kIqY jW Duir ikrqu Es dw eyho jyhw pieAw ]
kiaa hovai kisai hee dhai keethai jaa(n) dhhur kirath ous dhaa eaeho jaehaa paeiaa
What can anyone do? Such is his destiny, according to his past deeds.
This is the baby's, mine and the One's destiny.  Whatever the results show it is to do with our past deeds - what are we to do...?

ijQY Ehu jwie iqQY Ehu JUTw kUVu boly iksY n BwvY ]
jithhai ouhu jaae thithhai ouhu jhoot(h)aa koorr bolae kisai n bhaavai
Wherever he goes, he is a liar, and by telling lies, he not liked by anyone.


vyKhu BweI vifAweI hir sMqhu suAwmI Apuny kI jYsw koeI krY qYsw koeI pwvY ]
vaekhahu bhaaee vaddiaaee har sa(n)thahu suaamee apunae kee jaisaa koee karai thaisaa koee paavai
O Siblings of Destiny, behold this, the glorious greatness of our Lord and Master, O Saints; as one behaves, so does he receive.


eyhu bRhm bIcwru hovY dir swcY Ago dy jnu nwnku AwiK suxwvY ]2]
eaehu breham beechaar hovai dhar saachai ago dhae jan naanak aakh sunaavai
This shall be God's determination in His True Court; servant Nanak predicts and proclaims this.


It's true, I am not even a Mum yet but as that parent you just want to protect the little baby forever and just hold him close.  A mother will never let any harm come to her child.  This is how Maharaj is with each and every single one of us.  Everything happens for a reason, it is our karam, our destiny that whatever happens happens. 

I beg for you to give me strength and get through this.  Help me be strong.  Place your hand on the unborn child and carry him across. He is your child Maharaj, not mine. 



Waheguru




This gift is from you

Whatever happens Maharaj
It is in your hands
I grasp my stomach and know this gift is from you

It is, always was, always will be
thaeraa keeaa meet(h)aa laagai
har naam padhaarathh naanak maa(n)gai





Feelings after dream

I had this dream like just before I woke up where I am in this room and this gora is there too trying to prove to me that there is another life-form of spirits and ghosts. He was moving around this glass room, moving planks of wood in order to prove to me…


All of a sudden I felt a spirit lift me up and push me out of the glass room and outside to safety, I was scared bcos I thought it was a bad spirit but when I fell to safety I woke up ---- the hukamnama today seems so combine with that dream….i remember being half awake and half asleep when I woke up thinking why didn’t I just say waheguru because I was feeling it…..



I saw a baby boy playing during the night – who was adorable and I was speaking to him in Punjabi…..





English Translation:

Sorat'h, Fifth Mehl: He infuses the breath into the dead bodies, and he reunited the separated ones. Even beasts, demons and fools become attentive listeners, when He sings the Praises of the Lord's Name.

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Behold the glorious greatness of the Perfect Guru. His worth cannot be described.

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He has demolished the abode of sorrow and disease, and brought bliss, joy and happiness. He effortlessly awards the fruits of the mind's desire, and all works are brought to perfection.



He finds peace in this world, and his face is radiant in the world hereafter; his comings and goings are finished. He becomes fearless, and his heart is filled with the Naam, the Name of the Lord; his mind is pleasing to the True Guru.



Standing up and sitting down, he sings the Glorious Praises of the Lord; his pain, sorrow and doubt are dispelled. Says Nanak, his karma is perfect; his mind is attached to the Guru's feet.