Overwhelmed with Emotion

I feel so stuck so broken so lost

The back of my neck aches

To signify that which ever direction I turn 

It's painful

I feel like I can achieve so much and really hit some deep sentiments but I'm struggling 

Struggling to find the motivation 

Struggling to just stay afloat of the ever rising ocean 

So how is this overwhelming emotion manifesting? There's a list...

1. Piriformis pain like sciatica

2. Vaginal thrush 

3. Left jaw tooth pain albeit root canal been done

4. Over eating and snacking unnecessarily 

5. Hip tightness 

6. Tight shoulders and neck pain 

7. Lack of motivation for everything 

Where to go where to turn what to do?

I don't know anymore 

The cold has set in and makes me want to crawl in under the covers

Close my eyes

And fall into that eternal sleep 😴 

Mum was here

Last night, around midnight

We were all asleep

TV flockered on

Bellowing out and I will always love you

Whitney Houston

Woke us both up instantly

Felt like it was early morning

Was bright outside 

Heard presence outside my door twice.

Dreamt about sorting the garden grass at Mums house into fake grass

Mum was happy not having to mow or clear weeds

I said I would ring around and get best quote 

She was afraid of what Dad would say 

She pursued it anyway 

Was feeling down yeaterday 

Perhaps that's why she came 

It was her spirtual hug

Her reminder that she does love me

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Wonder if youngest got the visit too? 🤔